Jit Stories
By Korski

China Hotel Guide

• Cathay Hotel • Holiday Inn City Centre • Warm Yes Hotel • Grand Peak Hotel

She brings me my first one when I wake up. Then she goes to the street and gets us some food. She comes back and sits at the small table near the window and eats. I ask her to join me and eat beside me in bed. She shrugs her shoulders and keeps eating. That’s the way Jit is.

Later she disappears and comes back three or four hours later. I never ask where she goes because by then I’m into my second or third one and I don’t care. Anyway where she goes and what she does is her business. Why should I need to know?

Jit says she loves me and wants to take care of me forever. I don’t know about the love part. I do know she does a good job of making sure I have what I need. When I need more she goes to the street and buys it. When I tell her I’m not up to going out to the little restaurant we like that’s okay with her too. She goes out like she goes out in the morning and gets us street food. She gets spicy for herself and something not so spicy for me.

I try to take care of Jit too. I can’t do it during the day or before I have some sleep at night. I’m doing too much to forget Christie and put all that violence behind me. So Jit and I have this agreement. She wakes me in the middle of the night and kisses me several times and says okay honey. It takes me a while to wake up and get in the mood. I do though and do all that she wants. She likes me to stay inside her as long as I can. She says when I do this it makes her warm and loved like she never knew before.

We’ve been having problems lately. There’s a little blood after we’re finished most nights. I think it’s because I’m inside her too long and then what she asks for after that. I tell her and I show her with my hands what the problem is. She says no that’s not it. The problem she says is I’m too big around for her. That’s when I give her a picture lesson with my hands and talk about having babies. But she doesn’t believe me. She has her own ideas and I can’t change them. That’s how Jit it.

Jit asked me yesterday if we could stay together for another month or two and maybe longer. I said I sure want to. But I don’t know how long the money will last and how long it will take to get Christie behind me before I can think of doing something productive. I tell Jit a little bit about Christie and how we were girlfriend and boyfriend for five years and in love. I told her too how Christie lost her job and started drinking and then turned violent with me. I couldn’t control her. She would hit me with plates and anything she could find. I couldn’t hit her back until that last night. That would have been real trouble for me. Twice I called the police and they came and just listened and did nothing. That’s all they did was listen and days later Christie began again. Then one day I came home and found her with an empty bottle of gin at the table. I groaned and said not again and she took the bottle and hit me in the face. I bled good and when I came out of the bathroom and still bleeding I beat her up. I hit her with my fists and kicked her when she went down. I don’t how hard I kicked but she screamed and then stopped and rolled into a ball. That was when I packed my bag and got the money I had and left. I got my head fixed up and soon I was on my way to the airport and a one-way ticket over here. This is pretty much what I told Jit about Christie and me. When I told her she just listened and hugged me and made me another one and said she loved me. She said she wouldn’t do that to me.

Now she wants me to stop. She says she’s going to leave me one day if I don’t because I’m getting worse. That’s true. It’s one to another now all day long. I don’t seem to care most days and I wonder if Christie is alright and got a job and a new boyfriend. That’s what I would like to hear most of all.

I don’t want to believe Jit about leaving me. I tell myself it can’t be true because of the way she cuddles up and hugs all night with me in bed. She couldn’t be without that. I don’t think she ever had it before like with me. Once I asked her how her Thai husband made love to her. She didn’t want to answer me at first. Then she said they did it for five minutes and that’s all. That’s how they always did it. After five minutes he was off and asleep or off to see his friends and drink.

I met her just over the border after I got my visa. I was traveling on a dirt road on a motorbike going to where we are now. Jit was by the side of the road and a little crummy house and three naked kids running around. I could tell she needed a ride and was going to the same place. I had the guy taking me stop and I asked her if she was going the same direction.

She said she didn’t know if she wanted a ride right then in the same direction. She lost her Thai passport and couldn’t go home now. Then she said she thought maybe she could find it if she went back in the direction I was going.

Come with me is what I told her. Maybe you can find your passport and get the problem fixed.

I don’t know if I can trust you she said.

I looked at her kindly and told her she could just get a ride and get off when she wanted to.

She thought a long minute and looked at me carefully. I don’t think she trusted me then. Then she got on and before long she was holding my hands around her small waist because I was sitting behind her. She didn’t want me to fall off. That’s when I knew we would be spending time together.

Along the way Jit asked me if I had friends where we were going.

I shook my head and said not really. I did know a friend who was here on a long time buzz like I’m doing. He’s the one who got me to come here.

Why you going there she wanted to know.

I didn’t want to tell her so I said I didn’t know. It was too early to tell her about Christie and how I could get all I needed every day to make her and that problem go away.

Okay Jit said when I said I didn’t know. Up to you if want to tell me she said to me.

That’s pretty much all there is to say about how Jit and I found ourselves together and she taking care of me. I didn’t say anything about the passport problem after that even when I found it one day among her things. I figured she had her reasons for not wanting to go home and one day she’d tell me.

Jit tells me stories about her past. This is after we make love in the middle of the night and she wants to talk. It’s all one story that gets revised. Jit doesn’t have any special order for the chapters. In the morning when I remember the latest chapter she told me I give it a number. Then I have to revise the numbers of the other chapters because she tells them to me out of order. Some days it’s hard to think about reordering her chapters because the road I’m on is so flat and beautiful and there is not a bump or Christie anywhere in sight.

I used to be on one of those mountain and curvy roads with Christie. That’s how I think of it now. But it was driving me nuts and what I did was going to happen one day and it did. I regret it but there’s nothing I can do about it now. It’s better that I’m here and don’t know what happened to Christie or what would have happened to me for what I did to her. Maybe she’s okay and maybe she’s not. That’s up to her now.

So here’s one of the first chapters Jit gave me. In this one she only had one boyfriend up to the time we met and she’s twenty four. They were together three months and then she had to leave him. He was spending all his money and hers too and wouldn’t take care of her. In this version of this chapter like the next version he was hitting her and that was another reason it ended after three months. Funny or not so funny how it was just the opposite of my problem. That’s probably why she didn’t say too much and just held me the way she did when I told her about Christie.

Last week Jit gave me a revision of that chapter. She didn’t go back to the first version and it was like she forgot it. She out and out said she had been married for six months. It was her parent’s idea and not hers. She didn’t like him that much but she did it for them. They wanted the money and the gold. He had to pay 100,000 baht for her plus two of something or other in gold.

Jit went to the next chapter two nights later after I told her she was bleeding again for the third time and we had to be more careful about how we were making love. They moved from the north to Bangkok and got jobs. She worked during the day and he worked nights. Then she got a second job and barely saw him except on Sundays. He was making 8,000 baht a month and spending it with his friends and drinking it all away. He was always with his friends and didn’t want to cuddle and hold her and make love to her like I do. That wasn’t good but she could keep doing it for the money and gold he gave for her to her parents. She stopped there and didn't say more. The next night I told her I had to know what happened in the next chapter.

He hit her like a boxer on both sides of the face. It sounded almost a little like what I did to Christie when she hit me with a bottle and I needed nine stitches on the side of my head. After he beat up Jit pretty good she left him and went home to her parents and told them they made a big mistake. She told him she couldn’t return to him. You made a mistake she told her parents and I hope you learned something. They had to give back 40,000 baht and one piece of gold. That was the deal for getting rid of him.

I asked Jit why she didn’t have a kid with him. She couldn’t give me an answer. I guess there were not enough of those five minute times they had on Sundays or whenever.

Several days ago Jit came home with more of what I need and I asked her how much. She’s been good about my money and remembering how much things cost. Thirty cents a gram is what she told me. That was cheaper than ever before and it’s the reason I can’t leave right now. I didn’t tell her that. She wouldn’t like to hear it.

She wants me to quit and go with her to her home in Thailand and live there. She says I’ll quit if I love her enough. I try to tell her that I need to get Christie out of my mind first and that might take a while. Jit says she doesn’t understand about Christie staying so long in my mind. I should just forget like she did with her six-month husband. That’s how Jit thinks.

She cares for me a lot and I know that. I tell her I love her a lot too because she’s likes to hear that. But right now I can’t see the end of the long smooth road I ride all day long until I go to sleep and then get awake enough to make love to her.

After Jit told me that first chapter about herself that she revised she told me another story with some different chapter headings. One was about her younger sister. She is twenty-two and a little fat. That’s because she wasn’t so lucky and had a kid and can’t lose all the weight she gained. It was bad luck having the kid because her husband was bad too. He was stealing all her money and didn’t want to work. That marriage lasted not even three months. Their parents are taking care of the child. Jit didn’t say if they had to give money and gold back or how much her sister got in the beginning. She did tell me the father has never come around once to see his kid. He doesn’t give Jit’s sister money either.

The last two mornings Jit hasn’t been giving me the first one. I don’t know exactly what’s up. She got up both days and disappeared for longer than usual. I think maybe she met another guy and will tell me about him soon. Then I'd be on my own and I don’t know how I’ll get by without her.

Today when she gets back I’m going to ask Jit if she found someone else. There are lots of young guys like me here all doing the same thing I’m doing. I don’t know if they have their own Christie stories or not. Whatever is on their minds they like the nice soft buzz and no hassles same as me. We’re all talking about staying here long time. We don’t how we’re going to do it money and job wise. That’s what needs working out.

I have to think this one through with Jit now. I’m thinking if she says she’s leaving me for someone else I’ll try to persuade her to stay. But I’m also thinking I have to tell her it’s up to her. That’s what she would say to me if I found someone else. I think she would anyway say this. Who knows what Jit would say?

If she says I have to stop doing so much I might have to give that one a real long and hard thought. I don’t know if I can now. She’s been taking good care of me and I owe her something. Maybe if I stopped it would be easier at night too and then she wouldn’t bleed. That’s what makes me feel bad and why I need to try harder if she found someone else. If she stayed then maybe we could find a road we could both get on going in the same direction.

 

Stickman's thoughts:

Nice.

The author can be contacted at korski1@cox.net.
 The author of this website, NOT this article, can be contacted at: stickmanbangkok@gmail.com.